Wednesday, 22 May 2013

COMPLETE THE CIRCLE - Chapter 16


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Chapter 16

It was not until they joined Interstate 40 that David Lutman finally began to relax. That need to be with Deanne had now overwhelmed him to the point that he firmly believed that, even if the circumstances had been different and that he had entered into a relationship with Claudia, he would have still done the same thing. Deanne had made his decision so much easier to handle, although he felt he would have to keep the truth of what happened that morning to himself for the time being.
If not forever.
Deanne was smiling, and when not focusing on her driving, looking at him dreamily.
Although it was well into the second half of October, the temperatures were in the high twenties. They drove to the sounds of Pink Floyd, REM, The Flaming Lips, Radiohead and some obscure American band Lutman had never heard of. Not that he cared.
They spoke very little for the first hour, the desert scenery unfailing in its fascination and beauty. When they were just short of Flagstaff, Deanne decided a break was needed and pulled into a service area. She was still quite keen to get back to Phoenix, and so suggested they went for something fast foodish.
As they settled down inside the half-empty restaurant to enjoy their burgers and fries, Lutman felt confident and relaxed enough to attempt to ascertain how she might be connected with his future. ‘Deanne, I hope this doesn’t sound like a stupid question, but what do you think of the idea of time travel?’
She sipped her coke and smiled. ‘You getting geeky? That’s a strange topic to suddenly bring up now! Why do you ask?’
‘Well, you’re a physicist, so you’re probably the ideal person to ask. It’s just one of those things that, well, I’m… just a little curious about.’
‘Just a little?’ she giggled, before adding, ‘you know, it’s actually kind of funny you mentioning that.’
She took another sip. ‘What I do could be said to be connected with that subject but in an indirect kind of way. But this thing, well, it’s all just theory at the moment.’
‘And what’s this thing?’
‘Well, you heard of black holes?’
‘Er… aren’t they large stars that’ve collapsed under their own gravitational pull or something?’
‘Very good! To be exact, it’s what we call the area of space around a dead, collapsed star, from which not even light can escape.’
Lutman was intrigued. ‘So what’s the connection with time travel?’
‘Well,’ she began, ‘In my work I study quantum theory. I won’t try to explain that to you, as I can see you’re already pulling a face!’
Lutman smiled and unconvincingly tried to feign innocence. Deanne lent forward, whispering. ‘I believe it is genuinely possible to fall into a black hole, certain, swirling, black holes, into which you wouldn’t be crushed into something so infinitesimally flat. I believe that you would, in fact, enter a tunnel – or a bridge if you like – between two universes, and you’d come out of the other side. Now this other side could be one of three things.’
Her enthusiasm for this subject was clear as she continued. ‘The most popular belief amongst scientists is that one could use it to travel into another part of our existing universe. Another is you could end up in a parallel universe – a universe similar to ours in every way, where another you, and another me, exists, but where, for example, you made the decision not to join me here but opted to stay with your group in Las Vegas. Or, perhaps even more interesting, travel into another time.
‘This bridge that links these two universes of another place, another dimension, another time, whatever, we call a wormhole, or stargate. Now, this phenomenon doesn’t only work out there in space where these black holes are very big, but they also occur at a quantum level too.’
Lutman looked at her puzzlingly. ‘You’ve mentioned that word quantum again. What do you mean by a quantum level?’
‘It’s the study of things that are the total opposite of very, very, big!’
“…right,’ Lutman grinned.
‘Okay, now, just to give you some context, within this restaurant, outside, in the United States, in Britain, over the oceans, in the Arctic, everywhere around us, there are in fact countless fantastically minute wormholes all around us, an infinite number of them, all forming and decaying all the time within microseconds. Because they’re so small and their existence is so brief, we obviously don’t notice them.’ She paused to allow him to absorb this information, although she was not entirely convinced he had understood anything.
‘Okay… I think I’m with you so far…’ Lutman said cautiously. He was not entirely convinced he had understood everything, either.
‘Now I believe that if we’re able to capture and harness the power of one of these wormholes, and have the capability to keep it open, then it can take you to another point in time and space. The technology, the complexities, the known knowledge of physics, however, is extreme, but plausible. As I say, there are billions of these wormholes, and if you’re able to hold one open, great, but it’d be very unstable. If it’s allowed to collapse, it could have catastrophic consequences for both ends of the bridge – there, and here. But if you’re able to capture one and, if you’re able to keep it stable and hold such a wormhole open, then where would you go? Somewhere else on the Earth or in the middle of another galaxy? Maybe to another universe where you are in fact the scientist and I am the girl who’s running away with you? Is there some way of knowing beforehand?
‘David, I believe I know. You see, most, if not all of the more stable wormholes occurring here are, in fact, the ones that lead you to another time on this planet…’
Lutman’s heart skipped a beat. Lead you to another time on this planet. ‘How can you be certain?’
‘Let me finish. The ones that are the most unstable are the ones that can lead you to those parallel universes. The ones that fall in the middle are the ones for traveling interstellar distances. But, unfortunately, it’s all only theory and frankly, and despite support from my father and a few eminent folk, there’s no way anybody with the vast amounts of money or influence is going to be interested in helping me fund and complete my research into this. And as for the technology involved… well, I wrote a thesis on wormholes which got a few people’s attention, but apart from that, and the few months after when I was taking it seriously, I eventually gave it up.’
‘But you said you were doing this in an indirect way.’
‘Indirect is right. I’ve got lots of lovely complicated kit in the lab for quantum studies, but not in that particular field.’
Lutman took another sip of coke. He felt certain he had found the next few pieces of his puzzle.
*
Deanne felt confident enough to let the Englishman take the wheel, at least until they reached the suburbs of Phoenix.
As he started the engine, Lutman felt confident enough to ask the question. ‘Deanne, I know you think I’m going to sound crazy, but what if I were to tell you that I’d met someone who claimed to come from the future?’
Deanne laughed. ‘You know, I’ve read hundreds of accounts from people claiming they’ve done just that. Even people who’ve claimed to have built machines to do it. It’s all just total crap. Look, David, the fact is, we’re many years away, perhaps hundreds, from getting anywhere near that level of technology, so your comments have to be treated with extreme skepticism, particularly from me. C’mon, let’s go.’
The car slowly inched forward. ‘Deanne,’ said Lutman slowly, ‘I just want you to humor me for a moment. This person claimed he came from the future. This was about seven weeks ago. When he arrived, he said he’d just made the journey from a short time into the future.’
He paused for a reaction. She smiled, but nodded slowly, so Lutman felt safe to continue. ‘Let me tell you what he was wearing. He was wearing a pink tee shirt with a picture of the Grand Canyon on the front that included the words, I hiked the Grand Canyon, and there were further words on his back saying, I’m lying.’
Then to his surprise Deanne suddenly turned and glared at him. ‘Really? What else was he wearing?’
‘He was wearing a day-glow green baseball cap with the letters ‘DJC’ on it, a pair of green shorts tied with a black cord, and a small blue waist bag with Mickey Mouse on the front. He also shouted Dzizzy-R or something like that at me.’
‘Stop the car!’ she shouted, ‘I want you to repeat what you just told me!’
Lutman quickly put the car on the shoulder. This was a reaction he did not expect. ‘Well, I said it was about seven weeks ago –’ he began.
‘The clothes! What did you say he was wearing?’
‘I said he was wearing a pink tee shirt with a picture of the Grand Canyon and I hiked the Grand Canyon on the front, and further words on his back saying I’m lying. And a day-glow green baseball cap with ‘DJC’, a pair of green shorts and a small blue waist bag with Mickey Mouse on the front.’
Deanne went completely silent for a moment, and then said with a tone that expressed astonishment, shock and disbelief: ‘Oh. My. God. David, keep driving. Get me to Phoenix as quickly as possible. I have to check a few things.’
‘What is it, Deanne?’
Her response was curt and abrupt. ‘Just drive, please.’

Chapter 17 >

Friday, 17 May 2013

COMPLETE THE CIRCLE - Chapter 15

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Chapter 15

After consummating their relationship that night, David Lutman and Deanne Clarkson talked well into the early hours. He felt as though all his inhibitions, all his emotional baggage, all his senses of frustration had finally been released, and he had no hesitation in expressing all his innermost feelings about her. He wanted her life to become part of his. He wanted to remain with her and abandon the trek. She added that there was no further reason for them to remain in Las Vegas; they could disappear together almost immediately and go back to Phoenix. So he emerged from her room at six to make his way back to his hotel to collect his belongings.
Despite the fact it was still early, the city remained a hive of frenzied activity. Aware that he still had to sign the necessary resignation documents from the trek, he rehearsed what he would have to say to Janet. He had tried to contact her, but the battery in his phone was flat; he had no charger handy and he did not remember any of the group’s cellphone numbers. He prayed that he would not bump into any of them: he would just walk into the hotel, grab his things, inform Janet of his resignation from the tour, and then get out.
Although he was walking quickly along the strip, Lutman would still occasionally pause to peer through the countless casino windows, all of which seemed to be raking in just as much business as they had been doing a few hours earlier. He glanced at the individuals who still seemed happy to fritter their fortunes and their lives away.
         But now he could not help but feel he had just done something similar; his guilt complex was now telling him that he just been disloyal to Claudia, even though it had been by no means certain that they had a relationship that would have blossomed into something more serious. The only thing that had stopped him from feeling outright regret was his conviction that splitting – if indeed, it was a split - was the absolutely right decision.
The Brown Sands Tapestry was now right in front of him. Lutman took a deep breath and prayed.
*
There were many worried faces at breakfast in the hotel/casino restaurant that morning. When Jeannie was pressed by Janet, she would only reveal that ‘David ‘went somewhere’, but did not know where. She had expected him to be back that same evening.
Claudia, looking totally exhausted and virtually in tears, was the last to join them in the restaurant. She had spent her night worrying and waking an increasingly irritated Marcus to check if his room mate had returned. She had tried calling Lutman’s cellphone often, but it was always switched off.
Janet was now sufficiently worried enough to call the police. She stood up from her half-eaten breakfast and left the dining room, saying nothing. She was just about to make for her private office when she spotted him heading towards the stairs.
‘David!’
Claudia suddenly stood up sharply. She pushed her chair aside, squeezed her way past Kathrine and Jeannie who were sitting in her way, and ran out of the restaurant. As soon as she spotted him, she put her arms around him and held him as tightly as she could.
And kissed him passionately.
But after a few seconds, she pulled away. She knew something was very wrong.
Now the rest of the group had emerged from the restaurant, alerted to the fact that Lutman had not only arrived, but that trouble was also brewing. They stood stock still at the pair, silent, staring with a sense of fascination and waiting to see what was going to happen next.
         It was Claudia who spoke first. ‘David, what’s the matter? And where have you been? I’ve been so worried… I’ve been so scared! Why didn’t you contact me?’ She put her arms around him again and held him tight, hoping, even desperate for the response she craved. Tears were streaming down her cheeks. ‘David, please, don’t you realise it? Haven’t you realised how much I feel towards you? I love you, David, I love you!’
Lutman slowly put his arms around her, but did not hold her tightly. His expression was one of anguish.
‘I’m so relieved you’re here,’ Claudia sniffed. ‘Please David, I don’t want you to leave me I want you with me.’
         Lutman closed his eyes. Oh God, no. He had not expected to feel such intense regret. He had not expected this kind of reaction or feeling at all. He, in all honesty, had not expected her to have even fallen in love with him.
He gently eased her arms away from his body, and took a small step back from her. She squealed in disbelief. He looked into her reddened eyes and then turned to his uninvited audience who had all remained disturbingly silent, waiting to see what was going to happen next. They looked at him, clearly expecting the next move or words to come from him.
Lutman had not rehearsed for this scenario. He had convinced himself that all those events that had taken place hours before had been so clear, so straight forward; everything had been surely mapped out for him, and that everything would just happen so naturally. He should not have bumped into Claudia. He should not be standing in the middle of the lobby being the centre of attention in an emotional drama. It should have been Janet, his group leader that he was speaking to, confirming his departure, and that was going to be it. That was how it felt it was going to be. Any actions, anything he said, would just happen automatically. If anyone saw him, they would have been surely smiling, wishing him good luck, but no.
And now he had to say something…
‘Claudia… everyone...’ Lutman’s voice was audibly quivering, struggling to find the right words. ‘I have to leave you all. Today. And now. I can’t explain why, but I have to go...’
Then Janet stepped forward, her expression one of both shock and disgust. ‘David,’ she said angrily, ‘why didn’t you call us and let us know you were going to be out for so long last night? We’ve all been worried sick! I was just about to get the cops in!’
The imaginary hole that Lutman had now dug for himself was just getting deeper with every second. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said unconvincingly, ‘but… I really can’t talk to anyone. And now I have to go.’ He had to get out of the place, and fast. It was all beginning to make him feel rather ill. ‘Janet, please do whatever’s necessary to release me from the trek. Please!’
Claudia could only stand there, in total shock. Kathrine glared hard at him.
‘Yes, okay,’ said Janet wearily, ‘But I’d still appreciate some kind of explanation. I think we all would. Just letting someone go like this without a proper explanation doesn’t look good with my bosses or anyone else here.’
         ‘Okay… sure,’ he said quietly.
Now the whole group glared at him. He just wanted to run. ‘Can we do it privately? And now?’
‘All right. Come with me.’
‘David!’ shouted Jeannie, ‘When are you going to tell us what the hell happened last night?’
‘I’ll tell you later,’ he said gloomily. He really did not want to speak to any of them anymore.
David?’ Claudia began to cry once more. ‘What’s happened to you? Why are you doing this? If you’re going somewhere else, then please take me with you! I want to be with you! I love you, don’t you understand that? I love you David!’
‘Claudia...’ He was struggling to remain composed. ‘I-I do like you very much. Over the past few days I’d really grown very fond of you… I even began to fall in love with you, but I really, truly, didn’t know you felt that way towards me... but… something’s happened. Something that… well, if I tried to explain, you’d probably… oh God… but I didn’t know. I really didn’t know you had truly fallen in love with me… you have to believe me… and now it’s all too late… it’s all too late… oh God…’ He looked down at the floor, shaking his head. His mind went blank. He no longer knew what to do or say.
But Claudia clung on to whatever hope she had left. ‘Tell me David, please. Please. What happened? Say something to me, will you? What are you trying to do? Why are you doing this? I want us, you and me, to be together! Please!
‘Oh Claudia! I’m so, so sorry…’ He went up to her and hugged her. He no longer knew whether he was doing the right thing… it was all going wrong again, just as it did back in England.
NO! Not again! You are doing the right thing! You are going to spend the rest of your life with a girl who fell in love with you at first sight, and which allowed you to release all your inhibitions, and to whom you made passionate, unprotected love to last night…
His voice faltered. ‘I’m so sorry but I can’t…I can’t tell you… I have to leave you now… I have to leave you all. Goodbye.’
Although she had let him hold her, she then suddenly and forcibly removed his grip. Raising her hand, she unleashed a slap on his face that was so ferocious the force and pain sent him stumbling to the floor. ‘Go then if that’s what you want to do, you bastard! I never want to see you ever again!’
        Claudia was now inconsolable. Kathrine put her arm around her and led her towards the stairs to their room.
As he was nursing a bright red mark on his cheek, Lutman watched them. He desperately wanted to call out to Claudia. He wanted to explain everything. Absolutely everything. The time travelling. The baseball cap…
But he knew it was pointless. He could only sit there on the lobby floor, still not having got up from the slap; his eyes were firmly fixed on her as she and Kathrine slowly disappeared up the stairs and away from his sight, seemingly for ever…
Saying nothing, Marcus, Raoul, Marianne, Cindy, Sylvie, and Andrea slowly followed: nobody was in the mood to finish their breakfasts. Only Jeannie stayed put, and she certainly was not smiling. In all that time a number of other hotel guests had appeared, curious to see what all the commotion was all about. Many remained, glaring at him, wondering what he was going to do next. They only started to disappear when he finally got up, slowly and carefully, and glared back at them.
‘You didn’t do that very well, did ya?’ said Jeannie grimly.
‘No,’ said Lutman sadly, ‘I didn’t.’ He had thought the Caroline incident back home in Hensfield was the most awful thing that he had been responsible for, but this seemed to cap it all. He nearly decided there and then that the fates, the supposed future that had been set out for him was simply not worth all this, this pain, this misery that had been put upon him and others around him. Claudia had found him first, she had fallen in love with him, and he should have reciprocated. She was a lovely, genuine girl who would have made any man very, very happy, including him. But he knew it was now too late.
But Doctor Deanne Clarkson…
No. This is the right thing to do.
*
         Janet clearly did not really want to speak to David Lutman either. As she gestured him to sit down in her tiny room/office, she opened a grey metal cupboard next to her bed. She removed a box file, taking out a number of different colored sheets of paper.
‘So, David,’ she began sternly, ‘this is the document that officially authorizes me to release you from the trek.’ She put the sheets on the small table in front of him and placed a ballpoint firmly onto the table. ‘Fill out your name and date here, sign it at the bottom and I’ll do the rest. But it would help me considerably with the paperwork if you were to tell me what on earth is going on. I have to give my bosses some kind of explanation.’
Lutman took a deep breath. ‘Janet,’ he began as he filled out the form, ‘I’m going to ask you to keep to yourself what I’m going to say. Write it down for your bosses if you must, but please don’t tell anybody in the group what happened… with the exception of Jeannie, and even then only tell her when the trip’s completely over. The bottom line is, well, I’ve met another girl. And I’m going to stay here with her. I don’t want to go back to Los Angeles or to the group. I’m not even going back to England. She’s no ordinary girl. I’m convinced… well, let’s just say I truly believe she’s going to be my future. Don’t ask me why. It was hard enough for me to… to…’
‘To tell Claudia,’ Janet finished. ‘Okay, look, at the end of the day, it’s your decision. I’m not going to stick my nose into your business, and I don’t particularly care, but the moment you sign this, I and StatesTrek are no longer responsible or liable for any further actions you take.’
As he passed the completed documentation to her across the table, she lent forward. ‘I’ll be frank with you,’ she said firmly, lowering her voice. ‘Everybody, including me, believes what you did was rash, irresponsible, and totally upsetting. You’ve ruined everyone’s holiday. And as for poor Claudia… well, in all my years of doing these treks, I’ve never seen anything like this! Okay, I’ve seen relationships develop and end among individuals in my groups, but never ending like that!’
She sighed and shook her head. ‘I sincerely hope Claudia’s going to get over this quickly,’ she said softly.
‘So do I,’ said Lutman sadly, ‘I really do.’
But Janet’s voice turned serious once more. ‘I suppose I should really be exercising my right to have you thrown off this trip regardless, something I’ve never had to do before. I’ve nearly done it for disruptive influences, and I have to say you’ve well and truly crossed that particular line. So I suppose you signing this at least saves me from taking such action.’
         ‘Thank you, Janet,’ said Lutman solemnly. ‘And I’m really sorry this has happened. As to whether I’m going to eternally regret this, well, it may well be… a matter of time. Thing is, yeah, I do feel a right bastard now. And if I were Claudia I’d certainly never understand what I’ve just done. But I just find it… sad that she didn’t really tell me she loved me up to that point – I’d have never, ever, done what I did if she’d have told me before…
He stopped, realizing that saying anything more would be pointless and irrelevant.
He then stood up and put his hand out, but Janet refused it.
‘Good luck then on whatever you’re up to and whoever she is,’ she said coldly.
‘Well, thanks. Up to a few minutes ago, it had been a lot of fun. At least I was almost there right to the end.’
‘Yeah. Now go. Please. And as quickly as you can. I don’t want to see you again.’
*
Once Marcus had vacated the room, Lutman quickly packed up the remainder of his things. Neither of them felt like being in the presence of the other. In fact, none of the group was to be seen: it was though they had all decided to stay in their rooms, out of sight, until he was well and truly gone, which suited him fine. Then, making sure he was not spotted by anyone else, he ran to the hotel lobby, checked out, and ran into the parking lot.
To his immense relief, Deanne was waiting in her dazzling, white Toyota Corolla, motor running. Lutman opened the trunk to throw in his bags, then got inside. He swiftly belted up and asked her to get going.
‘Boy, you’re in a hurry,’ she said, surprised at his haste, ‘any problems?’
‘Let’s just say… well, I still have to get comfortable with the idea of what I’ve just done.’
         ‘Well, you are comfortable, aren’t you?’ She grabbed his hand and held it tight. ‘We’re together now.’ She paused, before adding: ‘David, look, I do hope everything was all right in there. Be honest with me, was everything okay? Were there any problems getting yourself released from the group?’
He forced a smile. ‘Look Deanne, let’s have a change of scenery and then I’ll be comfortable, relaxed, and very, very, happy.’
          ‘Well, okay, but…’
‘Let’s just say my trek leader was less than happy about me being absent this morning. It seems I got everyone worried, and I do feel bad about that. That’s why I look a little mopey.’
She looked at his face. ‘I notice your cheek looks a little red.’
‘Yeah, erm, I accidentally opened a wardrobe door the wrong way while I was packing at record speed.’
        ‘Oh, okay then.’ She put the automatic gearbox into drive and pulled out into the busy street.
       Only Jeannie saw them leave, peering through her room window. ‘See ya, David,’ she said softly.
        At that moment there was a knock on her door. It was Kathrine.
       ‘How’s Claudia?’
        Kathrine shook her head. 

Chapter 16 >

Thursday, 9 May 2013

COMPLETE THE CIRCLE - Chapter 14



Chapter 14

She had a very slight Latino complexion that was complemented with what he considered to have the most attractive brown eyes and red lips he had ever seen. She had long, brownish-red hair that was swept back and tied up with a red hair band. She was well-shaped without being particularly curvaceous, and she stood just short of his own height. She was dressed in a tight white cotton top that clung around her chest. She wore figure-hugging jeans and Nikes.
David Lutman just stared for a few seconds before he brought himself back to his senses, suddenly remembering that this stunning looking girl had just asked him a simple question. ‘Er, yes,’ he finally stammered.
She had entered the shop some ten minutes earlier, also looking for a pair of jeans, but had not yet tried anything on. She was about to leave when, her perspective, she noticed this rather interesting individual walking in. He was not somebody that she would have called exceptional in appearance  but there was something that compelled her to approach him, a compulsion which she found strange and overpowering, a compulsion to walk up to this man and engage him in conversation. And then, when she heard the British accent, an accent she had loved hearing from in the past, this rather average-looking tourist suddenly became the most wonderful, longed-for man in the world.
‘I think the British accent is really cute,’ she cooed nervously, her smile revealing a perfectly aligned set of bright white teeth. ‘I was in England only last year for a few months.’
          Lutman’s voice went up a pitch, his eyes still firmly fixed on hers. ‘Oh yes… so, erm… where were you exactly in Britain?’ he added uncomfortably.
‘In a city called Nottingham. Do you know it?’
Nottingham? Really?! I, er, come from Hensfield – it’s erm, it’s just down the road from Nottingham, about, er, thirty miles east, in fact, yeah, thirty miles.’
She giggled. ‘Hey, right!’
‘So, hmm…’ said Lutman, struggling for words again, ‘erm… oh yeah, by the way, my name’s David – David Lutman.’
‘David. Pleased to meet you, David.’
They shook hands. She smiled broadly. ‘My name’s Deanne, Deanne Clarkson.’
He also felt himself relaxing. ‘Nice to meet you, Deanne Clarkson.’
‘And you, too, David Lutman.’ She waited for him to make the next move. It was only a few seconds, but it seemed like an eternity before he finally said, ‘erm, so where did you stay in Nottingham?’
‘Oh, I stayed with a friend of my father’s while he was working in England a few years ago. He was living in an area called Old Basford for a couple of years and got to know a guy called Tony, his neighbor, pretty well. They’ve kept in touch ever since, frequently writing and even visiting each other here and in Britain. Lovely man. He and his wife have got three beautiful daughters.’
But not as beautiful as you are, Lutman thought.
‘I’d just graduated and had a bit of time to spare,’ she continued. ‘I’d always wanted to visit England. I’d always heard that British men were always charming and polite so I had to find out. Wasn’t quite what I expected, but that British accent is something else.’
‘So, er, did you meet any nice men out there?’ said Lutman as his confidence started to build.
‘Oh yes,’ she said cheerfully, ‘I even dated a couple. Seriously to begin with, but I told them I wasn’t prepared to come and live with them in England but I’d be quite happy for them to come out here. That put them off a little of course. Probably that English reserve.’
‘They were daft,’ smiled Lutman. ‘So, are you, are you… with a loved one now?’
‘No,’ she said firmly, ‘frankly, guys here are all too forward and sure of themselves. I dunno, I find that strange sometimes. I kind of quite liked the English though. Quiet, a little introverted maybe, but they’re reliable. But they are reserved.’
Lutman smiled. That’s me, he thought.
‘So why do you ask?’ she asked with a broad smile.
‘Oh, I’m er, just curious,’ he said nonchalantly. ‘Not all Brits are like that, you know, that is, being all introverted and reserved.’
‘So,’ she said softly, ‘how could I describe you then, David?’
He looked around the shop to see if they were attracting any attention, or if anyone was looking or listening, but there were only customers paying attention to clothes, and shop staff paying attention to customers. ‘Well…’
‘Oh yes, you are!’ she laughed, ‘a typical Englishman! All shy and introverted!’
          ‘Oh well, no, no, not totally!’ he stammered. But then he laughed with her. ‘But I like to think that I’m at least trustworthy.’
          But then he thought of Claudia. Well, okay, they had hugged and even kissed on the lips – but perhaps only once could it have been described as anything close to passionate. Despite plenty of hints, neither of them had made a clear move. He could not help but firmly believe he was now in the process of ending what should have been a potentially blossoming romance with Claudia. He then thought about Deanne's comments on her being happy for an Englishman to come to the States and live with her.
And then there was going back to work in EnglandOh God, he thought, that office job. ‘Well, I’m not afraid of leaving Britain if it leads to a better life,’ he said firmly and assuredly.
She smiled and looked to one side. ‘You’re really cute, you know. What are you doing in Las Vegas?’
He blushed slightly. ‘Oh, I’m on a touring holiday… and… well, you’re really cute too. Not just cute. I’d even say, really beautiful, too, Deanne. The most beautiful girl I could ever hope to have met.’ It had taken him just a matter of minutes to say what he had been struggling to say to Claudia for the past eleven days. It was so easy! It was so natural!
She smiled. ‘Say,’ Deanne asked, looking at a pair of jeans that had been dangling on Lutman’s arm ever since they started speaking, ‘are you buying those?’
He had completely forgotten about them. ‘Well… I can pick them up tomorrow.’
‘No no, get them now. Why put off till tomorrow what you can get done today!’
Lutman’s confidence was now at its peak. He felt assured and assertive, the best feeling he had ever felt. ‘Okay!’ he said enthusiastically.
He quickly tried on the pair while Deanne was waiting outside the fitting room.
*
After he had paid for the jeans, Deanne asked, ‘Would you like to join me for a coffee?’
Without any hesitation, Lutman replied, ‘Yes! Hey, aren't I supposed to invite you? Well, but, erm... I don’t actually like coffee, unfortunately… so let's make it a tea!’
‘Oh yes,’ she smiled. ‘I forgot. English tea! No problem! My favorite coffee bar in this city is only a couple of blocks from here, and they serve tea there. You coming?’
He grinned broadly. ‘What do you think, Deanne?’
They walked out of the shop. ‘I’ve the whole day free up to this evening,’ he added, ‘but tonight’s plot hasn’t been fixed yet.’
‘Oh, so you’re saying you only might be free this evening?’
          ‘No. I am free this evening,’ he said firmly, quickly adding, ‘so would you like to go to the cinema? No, I’m going to rephrase that. Deanne, I would like to ask you out. I would like to ask you if you would like to go to the cinema with me tonight.’
‘The movies? Sure! I’d love to!’
‘Good. What time – and well, you know this place better than I do - do you know the best place we can go?’
          She looked into his eyes and smiled. ‘Yeah, there’s a movie at the Brenden Palms Casino. 6.30 tonight. We can go out afterwards for a dance, if you like.’
‘There’s a cinema at the casino?’
‘Yeah, everything here in Las Vegas can be found in a casino, even movie theaters and nightclubs.’
          He hated the things, but tonight this was going to be an absolute exception. ‘Okay, great! So, let me know where it is and we can meet up there… or, er,  maybe I should be the absolute Englishman and pick you up in a taxi! How about that?’
‘David, that would be wonderful!’ said Deanne brightly as they arrived at the door of the coffee shop.
Even she could not believe what was happening to her. In a matter of a few minutes, she had fallen madly in love with an Englishman she had just met in a shop and, even now, hardly knew. She tried to tell herself this was not right, that it was a pretty dangerous whim to follow. But all of her being was telling her that this man was a nice, kind, gentle, honest guy. ‘So it’s a date then. Here’s my address.’ She handed him a business card from her rear pocket.
Lutman’s eyes widened as he examined the card. ‘Oh, I see! You’re erm, Doctor Deanne J. Clarkson!’
          ‘Sure am. Anyway, My hotel’s only two blocks away.’ She reached into her pocket once more. ‘And here’s their card!’
‘The Four Seasons, Clark Avenue. Okay, great. I’ll pick you up at five.’
‘Five it is then! But let’s go in and have that coffee first.’
‘Tea!’ said Lutman, laughing.
‘Tea it is!’
She put her arm around his and they walked inside.
Any guilt in Lutman’s conscience about betraying Claudia had vanished for now. In his mind, he was assuring himself that they had not gone out on any dates. They had not actually expressed their feelings for each other. Well, she had not. And in Deanne, he felt he had finally found his voice, his coming, his future. His answer to everything. Here was someone who seemed very reassuring, a good listener, and understanding. A doctor.
          Amidst the chimes of the ubiquitous one-armed bandits that had even spread to a simple coffee shop, the couple found themselves a table and placed their orders.
As they waited, he explained to her that his job in Britain was dull and boring, and that he was totally fed up with the continual process of writing press releases, working for the council, and receiving incessantly stupid phone calls. He pointed out that he had deliberately changed the phone number on his mobile so noone but his immediate family or fellow trekkers could contact him. After adding her number to his phone’s address book, Deanne told him firmly that the United States was the place where he could carry out any of his dreams and his desires. He liked the bit about desires.
‘So what do you do, Deanne?’ he asked airily, finishing his tea. ‘Are you a doctor of science or medicine?’
‘Science - I work with my father. He’s the director down in the Hartington Physics Laboratories in Phoenix. A place that’s studying all sorts of complicated things you really wouldn’t understand.’
          A key word. Physics. Time travel certainly has a lot to do with physics! ‘Go on then!’ he laughed, ‘tell me about all the complicated things I really wouldn’t understand!’
          ‘You know David,’ she giggled, ‘you don’t really seem the type who’d be that enthusiastic about physics!’ She then leaned forward, lowering her voice, and adding, ‘So what do you know about it, then?’
‘Well, I have to confess nothing really,’ he replied, also leaning forward and lowering his voice, ‘but there are certain areas I’m particularly interested in.’
‘Such as?’
‘Well, erm, speed, time, Einstein’s theory…’
She smirked. ‘Isn't that a bit geeky? Well, if you’ve got enough weeks, I’ll be able to explain it all to you!’
‘I’ve got plenty of time,’ said Lutman nonchalantly.
‘Really?’ she said with a mock tone of incredulity.
Well… I know physics can be incredibly complicated but I do have my reasons for wanting to know something about it.’
‘And what’s that, then?’
‘I’ve read one or two books on the topic and, well, I’d just really like to get your side of the story, and erm…’
She laughed. ‘What story? David, you really don’t have to try to impress me, you know. You've done the job. I’ve met men who thought they knew it all and more than once I shot them down in flames!’
‘Ah,’ he said uncertainly. This was the first time he felt uncertainty, but this quickly passed.
          She started stroking Lutman’s left hand with her right index finger. ‘I would rather talk to a guy who’s just plain and simply himself and doesn’t need to impress me with physics or science or maths or anything remotely academic just because I'm a doctor. I just want him to be himself.’ She then sat upright excitedly and picked up her coffee. ‘Look, if you really do have the time and you really want to learn a little something on the subject and what exactly I do, I can take you down to the labs. I’ll give you a grand tour of the place and equipment.’
‘Sounds great,’ said Lutman, ‘but don’t these places usually have a lot of secrets, you know, places where you just can’t let anyone come in?’
          The tea and coffee arrived. ‘Well, first of all, as I told you, the laboratory isn’t here in Las Vegas. It’s a five and a half hour drive. In Phoenix. Secondly, my particular lab isn’t considered top security. Yeah, there are sections of the complex we can't go to, but there’s nothing in my place to interest even a first-year student. You’ll get in there, no problem.’
Lutman sipped his tea. ‘So what are you doing here then, Deanne?’
‘Oh, God, well, the usual,’ she sighed. ‘I was tired, bored, fed up with work. You know, rather like yourself. I just wanted a little vacation. A complete change of atmosphere from the confines of the office, so to speak. See a bit of the nightlife, people, maybe even gamble a little.’
‘So when do you go back?’
‘I have to go back tomorrow afternoon,’ she said dejectedly.
‘Oh.’ His disappointment was hard to disguise. Surely not? Surely this was threatening to be an extremely brief encounter? He too was due to leave tomorrow.
‘I actually love Phoenix,’ she added, struggling to put on a brave face, ‘I’ve always said to myself that’s the place where I’ll always be. A city in the middle of the desert. It’s where I’ll always live and eventually die. Yeah, it’s a stupid thing to say, but, well, what the hell. That’s me.’
Lutman’s pocket bleeped, and instinctively removed his cellphone. ‘Ah, battery’s low.’
‘Can’t help you there,’ said Deanne, ‘different phone, sorry.’
Lutman shoved it back into his pocket. ‘Hey, come on Deanne, look, I , I can be here longer, if you really want me to. Look, why don’t you just delay your return for another twenty-four hours? Give us a chance to get to know each other a little bit more. Hey, by then we might know for sure whether we really do like each other, or we don’t. If we don’t, well, I’ll, erm…’
‘Do you have any idea how you’re going to get back if you stayed longer?’
          Lutman shook his head and smiled. ‘None at all,’ he said assuredly. ‘Yes, I’m on a trekking holiday and my minibus leaves here and goes back to Los Angeles tomorrow morning. But… well, perhaps we can make a decision after tonight.’
Deanne just looked at him, expressionless and wide-eyed. That was not the answer she wanted.
Lutman understood immediately. ‘Deanne, look, if you’ll stay longer, I’ll stay longer!’
She brightened up and took his hand. ‘Good. A firm decision! That’s what I want! Okay. Let’s see how things go tonight, and if it doesn’t work, fair enough, we both go back to our original plans. But if it does… I’ll call my father tomorrow, make up some kind of excuse, you know, and tell him I found this rather charming Hugh Grant-type Englishman who’s taking me out to the movies!’
‘Me?’ he laughed, ‘like Hugh Grant?’
‘Okay then, someone close!’
‘Another coffee, Deanne? My pleasure again!’
*
As they enjoyed their second round of tea and coffee, Lutman told her all about the trek and the many places he had visited. Instinctively holding hands, they left the coffee shop an hour later and strolled aimlessly past the multi-colored neon glare that surrounded the endless restaurants, casinos, and everything else associated with Las Vegas. Except it was still daylight.
Five minutes later their arms were wrapped around each other. Time had become irrelevant, but Lutman was only too aware that soon he had to be back at the hotel for the group’s evening get-together.
‘Are there any nice girls on your trek?’ Deanne asked.
‘Oh yes,’ he answered truthfully, but then lied, ‘but… none of them are really my type.’
          ‘You know, it’s all so weird,’ said Deanne quietly, ‘well, to be frank, it’s stupid even, stupid that it’s only been a short space of time, but, I don’t know, I just feel I know you so much…’ She stopped, and looked down at her feet. ‘I’ve truly never felt this way about someone before.’
Lutman sat up and spoke assuredly. ‘Deanne, truly, I’ve never met anyone like you before. I’ve never felt so much in love with a girl in such a short space of time... I’ve never felt like this, just like you, I never even thought that there was any truth in love at first sight, but the moment I saw you in the shop… I just knew… He glanced at his watch. ‘Damn! I have to get back to the hotel! Oh GOD!’
‘I’ll come with you,’ said Deanne, ‘you have your meeting, and then we can then get to the movie theater without hurrying. You don’t need to bother about ordering a taxi. I’ll sort that out when we’re ready.’
‘Look, tell you what,’ Lutman said breezily, ‘I noticed a bookshop a couple of doors down from the hotel. I don’t have to be at the meeting. You wait in there while I quickly nip in and tell Janet, my tour leader.’ In truth he did not want to be seen with Deanne by any of the group, particular Claudia.
‘Which hotel?’
‘The Brown Sands Tapestry,’
‘I know it. What’s the bookshop called?’
‘I don’t know, unfortunately.’
‘If it’s the one I’m thinking of,’ Deanne said slowly, almost in a whisper, and adding a bemused look on her face, ‘then I bet you don’t know what kind of bookshop that is!’
‘Well, it looked like a bookshop, as far as I could make out!’ he laughed.
She shook her head and grinned. ‘I see you really don’t know Las Vegas very well! Hey look, I’ll be around. There are plenty of other shops here. I’ll be in one of those. You’ll soon find me.’
‘Okay. Erm, you will wait for me, won’t you Deanne?’
‘Of course I will. And David…’
‘Yes?’
She looked at him from top to bottom. ‘Do you have any long pants you could wear?’
‘Pants?’
‘Yeah, sorry, trousers.’
He looked at his white shorts and top, and announced, ‘well, I do have some new jeans to try!’
‘Okay, and for God’s sake, change that tee-shirt too!’
*
As he walked across the hotel parking lot, Lutman saw Jeannie approaching from another direction with a bag of clothes shopping. This gave him an idea.
          ‘Jeannie!’ he shouted as she was about to walk into the hotel.
‘Hi David!’ she breezed back, ‘How’s it going? Where’s Claudia then?’
He took a deep breath. ‘Erm, Jeannie, I want you to do me a really big favor.’
‘What’s that?’
‘Look, I’m going to ask you not to mention this to anybody, but… I’ve got a date tonight. I’ve just meant the most beautiful girl ever. I won’t be at the meeting. Can you let Janet know I won’t be there? Don’t tell her why.’
‘Sure! But what shall I tell her?’
‘Just… well, tell her that I’ve actually bumped into an old friend I met on my last trip, and that … he and I are going out for a drink. Or something like that…’
Jeannie looked at him with slight bemusement. ‘Isn’t it a bit late in the day now find a date?’
‘Yeah, I know, we’re leaving tomorrow. But Jeannie, if tonight goes really well, it’s highly probable I won’t be going back with you.’
‘What? Oh… okay,’ she said, trying to sound cheerful, ‘it’s your life, your happiness, so if you feel if it’s what you want to do...’
‘Thanks Jeannie. I promise to make it up to you some time,’
‘Maybe send me a wedding invitation?’
‘Hey, give us a chance first!’
‘Okay David, have fun!’
‘Thanks again. Love you!’
‘See ya! And good luck!’
*
          It had taken almost the whole trek just to get Claudia to sit with him inside his tent, but mere minutes to be arm in arm and holding hands. He was about to take out Doctor Deanne Clarkson, a beautiful American physicist, to a cinema in Las Vegas. And it now seemed clear to him that as a consequence, she had given him the first true clues to the fate that had been dictated to him by the visit of his future self some weeks previously. He was convinced that she was his destiny, and every ounce of his being told him he had to follow it.
He followed Jeannie inside the hotel a minute later, and counted himself fortunate that he did not bump into any of the other members of the group inside. He was supposed to be sharing a room with Marcus, but the Canadian was still busy enjoying himself with the Australian girls, something which could be clearly heard as he walked past their door. And it was not just giggling and laughing. Good luck mate, he thought, on getting them both into the same bed and at the same time.
Within ten minutes he had washed and changed. Taking care not to be seen, he rushed out of the hotel and found Deanne in front of a men’s clothing shop window just a block down. Even though she had put a light white jacket on top of her tight white cotton top to be a little less conspicuous, she was fairly easy to spot.
‘Now that looks much better!’ she gushed approvingly, eyeing him up eagerly as she offered her hand for his.
She called for a taxi on her cell phone. It duly arrived within five minutes and subsequently took them to the Brenden Palms Casino.
They quickly found the movie theater and sat in the back row. A Woody Allen movie, which Lutman knew absolutely nothing about and had little interest in, was playing to an almost empty auditorium. But it soon became clear that Deanne was not interested in the film either.
          In relative privacy, they snuggled up together. When the brightness of the movie screen switched to a darkness that sent the rows of seats at the back into comparative gloom, Lutman took the opportunity to kiss her neck. This was something he would never have dared to have done previously with any girl on a first date, but he felt that he could do almost anything.
She slowly turned her head towards him, moved closer, and then kissed him full on the lips.
*
Two hours later, the movie was over: it was now dark outside. After a short conversation about what the movie may have been about as neither of them paid any attention to it, Deanne invited him to her hotel for a tea. To get there, they chose to walk along the garishly neon-lit Las Vegas Boulevard, or as better known to Las Vegans, tourists and gamblers, The Strip.
Arm in arm, they enjoyed the bright lights and dazzling excesses of the countless casinos and over-extravagant visual displays of the lavishly and excessively-designed hotels so typical of the city. Every one of them would have stories of how financial hopes and dreams became real or, more realistically, certainly in Lutman’s mind, shattered and ruined. He had been one of the very lucky ones. He had found his prize.
          Lutman was then brought to his senses when he noticed several groups of men handing out little magazines in the strip. One of whom caught his attention, and foisted a copy into his hands. He then got a funny look from Deanne, and suddenly realized he had got hold of a catalogue that was full of scantily-clad, topless, bare backsided, or totally naked young women.
After sheepishly throwing it away, Deanne smiled. Realizing his ignorance, she informed him that prostitution was legal in Las Vegas. ‘Anyway,’ she added with a slight twinkle in her eye, ‘you don’t have to pay for that kind of thing.’
Lutman smiled. He knew what she meant.
        They walked for another twenty minutes without further incident. The doorman greeted them as they entered a lavish four star hotel that was fronted with the ubiquitous casino, and looked like every other casino they had walked past. The novelty of Las Vegas had now completely worn off for Lutman.
Deanne invited him to play on one of the black jack tables, but after five minutes he lost thirty dollars. ‘That will well and truly do me,’ he said. ‘I’ve no intention of becoming destitute over the next hour or so!’
          She took him by the hand and walked into the biggest hotel lobby Lutman had ever seen. The male receptionist recognized Deanne immediately, smiling. ‘Room 644?’ he asked tonelessly.
Nodding, she took the key and they walked into a large, glass elevator with a view over the casino.
The contrast was amazing when they exited on the sixth floor. There was not a slot machine to be seen, and the silence was almost deafening, with only the hum of the air conditioning. There was absolutely no audible indication of the raucous activity from the ground floor.
Deanne’s room was just a short walk from the elevator. She unlocked the door and entered, pulling Lutman inside.
Without putting on the light, she closed and locked the door. She then put her arms around him tightly, kissing him passionately and guiding him onto an extremely large and sumptuous bed.
David Lutman did not return to his hotel that night.

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